"More than hurting me, it makes me sad," Fernandes said. "I'm a player that no-one can criticise, I'm always available, I always give my best.
"I could have left in this transfer window, I would have earned much more money.
"I would have won many trophies this season, but I decided not to go, not only for family reasons but because I genuinely love the club."
Fernandes joined United in January 2020 for £47m from Portuguese side Sporting and has made 307 appearances for the club, scoring 103 goals and providing 93 assists.
This season, he has five goals and seven assists in the Premier League, including a brilliant free-kick strike and an assist in Monday's 4-4 draw with Bournemouth.
In June, Fernandes said one of the reasons he did not join Al-Hilal was because he wanted to continue to "play at the highest level", and it was United boss Ruben Amorim who urged him to stay at Old Trafford.
However, Fernandes told Canal 11: "The club wanted me to leave. I told the directors that, I think they didn't have the courage to make that decision because the manager wanted me.
"But if I said I wanted to leave, even with the manager wanting me to stay, the club would let me."
Sources told BBC Sport that Manchester United have no desire to sell Fernandes or for him to leave and he continues to be central to the club's long-term planning.